you wore that shirt you always wear
you know the one
with the pearl snaps and
the sleeves you roll up
and push up over and over again
unconsciously in the middle of a story

I don't know if your hair was
up or down
it didn't matter

you caught me off guard
when you put both arms around
me
and pulled me close
cheek to ear
breath hot on my skin
(my heart leapt)
you whispered

you're the best friend I've ever had

I awoke
disappointed